A 5 year old MONKEY!!!!

This sweet little girl is 5!!!! I can't believe it!

I still remember going to meet her at the hospital the day she was born. She was so cute and chubby wrapped up in a softy fuzzy pink blanket. It is crazy to think how many memories I have made with her in the past five years. I didn't think it was possible to have so many because it seems like time has FLOWN by! She is such an amazing little girl and has so much love to give. I absolutely L.O.V.E. nights where all she wants to do is be snuggled while watching a princess movie or reading stories. They make me melt... But I also love nights where she wants to paint nails and dance until we can't move anymore. I love that every time she sees me she runs out to my car, jumps on me and gives me a kiss and sings, "You and me baby we're stuck like glue!" I hope that she never thinks she is too big and grown up to do all of these things with me, but I am so also excited to see the person she is going to become. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONKEY! I LOVE YOU!!!!

The birthday girl and I

Waiting.... (and trying to do so patiently)

There are some things in life that I have so much patience for (kids for one, which I am SO grateful for), and other things that I don't have so much patience for. One of them is this whole being single thing. It's not that I am in such a big rush to get married, it's that I want to be someone's number one. I want to be someone's top priority and I want someone who loves me enought to WANT to marry me one day.

I haven't ever believed that there is one specific person out there who is the only person in the world that can make me happy, however I do believe that there is someone out there that will make me feel like that. Anyone that knows me very well knows that I thought I found that person once and it didn't work out. I'm not bitter about things ending, because it wasn't meant to be. What I am bitter about is that I was willing to do anything for him and his family and allowed myself to love him with all of my heart and to take on his family as my own, only to find out that they could care less about me. I'm bitter about that because now when I do find the person that actually wants me to a part of his family and deserves me and all that I have to offer, it is going to be hard to let him and his family in to my life 100%, but I know that it will happen.

Lots of my friends have gotten married and I often wonder if I will ever find the person that loves me enought to never want to spend one day without me. Every time I go to the temple and do baptisms for the dead I always wonder what it will be like to one day be taken through the temple with my best friend to get my endowments out and then shortly thereafter be sealed to him for time and all eternity. Well to that person out there, I have some stuff that I want you to know...

I promise to be your best friend every single day no matter what is going on in our lives. I will love you and have a deeper appreciation for you than you could ever imagine. I will live my life in a way that will allow us and our future children to be together for an eternity, because there is no way I am going to want to let you go at the end of life on earth. I will be the best mom to our children that I know how to be. I'm not promising that I will be perfect because I know I will make an abundance of mistakes along the way, but not one day will go by that I won't try to be the most amazing mom. I will try to make you laugh every single day, I think I am actually pretty funny. I am a fairly decent cook although I have burned a few things, but I'm sure it will get better as time goes on. I love sports so I will never complain about watching them with you (but please just watch a chick flick or Disney movie with me every now and then). I promise to always be honest with you. I will try to make you fall more in love with me each day. I will never expect you to do anything for me that I can't do for you. And last but not least, I will make you happy and proud to say that I am your wife.

Now for all of the things that I have promised you, I expect the same in return. And I know that if you love me enough to promise me and eternity, that you will be more than happy to do those things for me. I know that your out there and maybe I have met you, and maybe I haven't. But for now I will be here, waiting patiently....